Today, I started a 3 day water fast.
Initially I was motivated to do it because I wanted to lose a few pounds and I had found some amazing detoxifying water recipes.
As the evening passed, I realized that”I” was not the reason for this fast.
Suddenly God had become the reason. It was like he showed up and said:
“I knew weight loss would get your attention but you are actually doing this for me”.
I continued about my night and went back and forth on whether I would do it or not. I had not prepared in the least bit. As a matter of fact, I went crazy on some Vanilla Wafers a few hours earlier.
I slept on it.
When I woke up, I hadn’t forgotten about it.
You see, I have a tendency to “forget” about certain things (i.e. going to the gym first thing in the morning, lol). But this was the first thing I thought about when I woke up. I had to do this.
I started the day with a glass of water along with a quick weigh-in on the guest bath scale. Although I was no longer doing this for the weight loss I can’t lie, it was still a part of my motivation.
I hopped on the scale.
That’s what it said.
The most I ever weighed in my LIFE.
Besides when I was pregnant.
Ok so now I really had to do this.
I started the day with prayer.
I prayed to God to help me resist biting my son’s fish stick.
I prayed to God to help me not lust after the apple I cut as though I were in the Garden of Eden.
I prayed and prayed and prayed.
I woke up early with no alarm… and excruciating pain in my right hip and knee.
I wanted to give up. I was pretty sure that food would help my knee pain as crazy as that sounds.
I prayed all day long. The hunger was real! Everywhere I turned I saw my favorite food. Food I didn’t even know was my favorite like, Rocky Road Clusters? Who even came up with that?
Everywhere I turned there was some reference to food. At that point, I realized how sneaky food can be and how it can infiltrate everything in your life.
I honestly felt like food was chasing me.
But throughout the day I noticed a change. Excitement. I began to look forward to the time that I was allowed to spend with God. My lunch break was not filled with thoughts or dialogue about what I would eat. It was filled with PURPOSE. I knew I would spend dedicated time with the one who made it possible for me to achieve my fasting goals.
Would you believe me if I told you I wanted to continue with my fast for a few more days?
When I woke up this morning I felt as though I could keep going with this thing. Although I woke again with a little body pain, I began to find sustenance in the simplicity of water and I didn’t want to give up my AM meditation time with God.
Within the first five minutes of drinking water, the body pain went away. I think the pain was the toxins in these areas being released. Whenever I am overworked or overtired, these are the first areas to give me issues.
Food continued to chase me but my blinders were on.
My day today was so busy that I barely had the chance to drink water let alone eat a meal. When I left work I literally exclaimed:
So many thoughts were packed into that one word. Gratitude. Achievement. Humility. Appreciation.
When I got home, I thought long and hard about whether or not would continue for more days. I knew I could continue to make breakthroughs but ultimately decided against continuing.
I decided to stop because I would not be doing it for the right reasons at that point. I would be doing it for weight loss again. Something that would completely negate everything I had done in honor of Him over the last 3 days.
I would definitely do it again. It was challenging and rewarding at the same time. It showed me that anything you think you may be hooked/on addicted to can be broken.
I’m so glad to have connected with God during this time because I gained an understanding of who He really is.
Lastly, I purposely waited until the end to share my weight loss because ultimately, that was an afterthought and no longer became the reason.
Day one – 166 lbs
Day Three AM – 162.4
Day Four AM – 157.2
Total Weight Loss: 8.8 Pounds
Here I am about to have my first bite of food in 3 days…heaven!